March 29, 2010

Video of Margaret Sanger

Here is an interview that attempts to remain unbiased and does a decent job of maintaining a somewhat neutral position and not resolve the differing political issues.

Here are a few of her responses that stood out to me:
>Bearing and raising children is secondary to the marriage relationship.

>She hates to see suffering and cruelty (of which bearing children in pregnancy, childbirth and rearing constitute besides that which we would normally consider physical suffering from disease, etc).

>As a feminist, she felt that women should not bear the burden of carrying children in pregnancy. (--isn't that just what God mandated?! "Hey honey, I'll carry the child for the first 20 weeks and you can carry him for the last 20 weeks. You can do the labor and delivery, I'll pick up with the breast feeding - since you don't have any breasts.")

>She believes that it is a sin to bring a child into the world who is diseased or will not have a normal quality of life.

>Oh, and notice how she lights up when asked about her grandchildren, when in all her crusade for birth control she divorced and was estranged from her own family!

Multitude Monday

holy experience

I will give thanks to the LORD according to His righteousnessAnd will sing praise to the name of the LORD Most High.
Psalm 7:17

331. An early morning run at normal performance.
332. Sunshine peaking through the windows, reflecting off our wood floors.
333. Christian radio.
334. A Getty music sale.
335. Resurrection Sunday approaches.
337. A husband who decided to love me.
338. The gift of a new car seat for Lily.
339. Finishing The Fellowship of the Ring.
340. A shower taken in peace.

What are you thankful for today?

March 27, 2010

Saturday Strings

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Carnatic Violin

performed by TKV Sir

Although the violin originated in the West, it is not just a Western instrument. This style of music is an excellent demonstration of the vocal qualities associated with a non-fretted, bowed string instrument. This excerpt might make some of us Westerners a little crazy, "Pick a tonality for goodness sakes!" but it's always good to broaden our horizons, so to speak. I'm amazed by how easily and quickly he slides a whole step or more on one finger!

March 25, 2010

Funny Friday: New Tim Hawkins Videos

This one is from this past Christmas season, but it's very funny.

This is the same Chic-fil-A song he has always done but with a new added verse at the end. Very funny!

Here's a new Chic-fil-A song my friend Jennifer sent me.

Christians Who Don't Read?

I've had the privilege of befriending a young woman who works at the front desk of my gym. She's not a believer but does quite a bit of reading and we share many of the same interests. She typically reads non-fiction, self-improvement type books and was very excited when I shared a few small booklets, Resources for Changing Lives (NANC) entitled: God's Love: Better Than Unconditional and Motives: Why Do I Do the Things I Do? Both are excellent and Jeramy and I love to read these and glean new insights as well as distribute them through the ministry (at or below cost) and to individuals we may meet personally.

In the Motives booklet, Edward Welch brings the reader to the reality of idols - any time that we are serving someone or something else other than God. These Resources are great because it causes the reader to assume the authority of Scripture.

Sometimes we come across individuals who claim Christianity as their religion (I use that term loosely) but they don't read Scripture. The next question I ask myself is, "Are they serving some idol and not the revealed God of Scripture?" If we are not diligent to remain in the Word of God, constantly studying it for ourselves, interpreting Scripture by Scripture for a complete picture of who God has revealed Himself to be, then how do we know that the person we think is God really is God and not some idol we just call by the same name? The Enemy would just love to deceive us into believing that something else we call by the same name is God when it really is not.

We need to challenge the people we come in contact with, especially professing believers, that if they don't read the Scripture, then they won't know the true God.

. . . . . . . . .

The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the revealed belong to us and to our sons forever, that we may observe all the words of this law.
Deuteronomy 29:29

"I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit, He prunes it so that it may bear more fruit. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing. If anyone does not abide in Me, he is thrown away as a branch and dries up; and they gather them, and cast them into the fire and they are burned. If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love; just as I have kept My Father's commandments and abide in His love. These things I have spoken to you so that My joy may be in you, and that your joy may be made full.
John 15:1-2, 4-7, 10-11

March 22, 2010

Multitude Monday

holy experience

I'm thankful for:
321. Chic-fil-A lemonade
322. Blueberry Luna bars
323. An early morning run at my normal speed
324. The rain
325. The powerful Word of God that upholds all of the universe
326. We have a reliable vehicle.
327. No pressure to return to the violin before my wrist is ready
328. A sunny, warm Saturday to rake leaves
329. Tim Hawkins on YouTube
330. A later dawn, for now.

What are you thankful for today?

March 19, 2010

Saturday Strings

Play violin during brain surgery?

Choose: end your career or drill holes in your head.

I think it's a little crazy!
If it were me, I might just as well retire.

Funny Friday: Toddler Talk

The following is only funny if your toddler is a girl and her Dad is a regular build, lean, masculine man.

"Daddy's panties."

"Daddy's boobs."


March 18, 2010

Update: Baby #3

Tuesday I went for the baby's OB checkup. Right now I'm 18 weeks - almost at the half-way point. I definitely noticed my belly growing during the two weeks of recovery after carpal tunnel surgery. Because I was not allowed to get the dressing wet and felt uncomfortable driving, I was unable to get to the gym to exercise. So far I've gained 6.5 pounds and I returned to the gym this past week. :-D I've felt the baby moving some and it's very exciting. In four weeks we will have an ultrasound and find out the baby's gender. Jeramy and I have no preference for the sex, but Jeramy would like to know and I concede without coercion. :-) Any guesses?

My blood was drawn again for the antibody reaction. They will probably draw it every 4 weeks or so. The DR said that quantitatively it doesn't show up on the scale, i.e. the reaction was so weak it doesn't fall in any measurable range. Because of that they cannot determine the reason the antibody became present in the first place. The DR also told me not to lose any sleep over it. They are monitoring it closely to make sure that the level doesn't increase. If it does then specialists and shots are easily accessible. No need to worry. :-) Again he assured me that it should have no effect on this pregnancy, although it might on future ones.

March 15, 2010

Blacks an Endangered Species?: Digging For Truth

A Not-So-Silent Situation
An American Holocaust is occurring. It's happening right under our noses and with our full knowledge. It's going on behind closed doors and in open streets. We can see it in large cities and small cities all over the country. Mass murder is taking place by the millions each year. An unprotected group of people are being removed from the population.

Many refuse to believe that it's happening. They shield their eyes and choose to think about other things. Some know full well but decide that this is not a battle worth fighting. Others vehemently fight to allow it to continue based on some romantic ideal. And others, in an attempt to remain neutral, say it's not their battle to fight. We pick an excuse or create one of our own.

Only a select few actually see the carnage . . . the millions of dead bodies . . . the ones charged with disposing of them . . . in mass graves. It is covered up, so that the public can remain in ignorant bliss. If the public doesn't see it, then they can deny how widely it happens. They can resort to using philosophical arguments, opinions and personal preferences to advocate it's practice. But regardless of all attempts to stay uneducated and uninformed, the devastating results have already become evident.

While some elevate the democratic ideal above all other forms of government, it is this same form of government that won't give this unprotected group of people a vote. They are not allowed a voice. And in cases like these some take up a voice on their behalf because they have a passion for justice. It is this same passion that drove members of the underground railroad, abolitionists and soldiers - people who not only talked but laid down their lives for such a cause.

No More African Americans?
I'm speaking of abortion. After reading a post on Al Mohler's blog about the correlation between abortion and the population of the black community, specifically in Georgia, I became passionate at first but then I was driven to look closer at the actual data. The internet can be a very helpful place to find free information, but the reliability of said information is uncertain.

Depending on which sites you look it is very easy to allow oneself to be swayed by the bias. From the first reading it would appear that the black community is having so many abortions that we are wiping ourselves out and within a few generations, there would be no African Americans. And it doesn't stop there, most (not all) black people are pro-choice - they willing engage in ethnic suicide, as it's been called. Margaret Sanger has been labeled a racist eugenicist and her organization, Planned Parenthood, have been the objects of all pro-life advocates' hatred.

I was compelled to investigate all of these claims, having my own personal motivation of the status of "my people" (a totally different blog post) and trying to convert my pro-choice family members. I spent several hours of searching for answers and hard facts from what I thought to be respected reliable sources. In the end the statistics I found did not paint such a bleak picture.

The Hairy Numbers
Upon reading Mohler's post, I went to,, and besides reading the articles referenced in the post from the NY Times and LA Times. It was my goal to reference primary source data as much as possible. As Bound4Life sited the 2005 CDC statistics, I could not find them from the CDC website, but found them in The 2010 Abstract: US Census Bureau (Births, Deaths, Marriages & Divorces). I assume this is the best place for a thorough grasp of the actual reported numbers. Tables 80, 106, 99, 100, 113 show that white abortions still outnumber black abortions, percentage-wise but black fertility rates across the nation are higher (Table 80: Black 72.1/White 68.0 in 2006) but black infant mortality rates in Georgia are higher (Table 113: Black 12.9/White 5.8 in 2006). However, per 1,000 women, the percentage of black women getting an abortion is higher (Tables 99 & 100: Black 49.3/White 13.6 in 2005). This clearly indicates that black women are more inclined to have an abortion. It also shows that the black community should be growing each year (Table 80: showed 666,000 births and Table 106 showed 290,000 deaths in 2006. That's a 376,000 person growth in 2006 according to this data).

Black women are more than three times as likely to have an abortion than a white woman. The allegation that abortion clinics (specifically Planned Parenthood, PPFA) have been strategically located in low-income communities populated mostly by blacks may be true. I had a difficult time correlating the ethnic demographics with the specific locations of the PPFA clinics in GA. Upon reading about the Negro Project of PPFA, it has been said that the people, represented by black leaders, such as W.E.B. DuBois, actually requested they be placed there.

Margaret Sanger's articles and books are available to read for free online, linked through her biography on Wikipedia. I have read through 3 of her works (hardly a representative sample), and of what I read, there is no mention of the "feebleminded, morons, idiots," etc. being the whole of the black 'race'. There is no doubt she was a eugenicist. She viewed proper birth control through feminine hygiene as the only preventative to conception and abortion. She also urged the medical community to create a "miracle pill" contraceptive now known commonly as the Pill. I encourage you to read her own words for yourself.

And finally, from the Georgia Right to Life (Analysis of 2007 Stats for State and by County) and Planned Parenthood websites, I found that PPFA only has 5 clinics in the entire State of GA and that other facilities, most prominently, Summit Medical Centers, is the largest provider of abortions in Georgia. While PPFA claims to be the nation's largest provider of sexual and reproductive healthcare, that is not the case for GA.

The Assumptions & The Motives
Other sites and statistics may say otherwise, but I do not assume the final burden of proof. Any reader of internet websites make assumptions when they visit that the information is trustworthy, that the numbers represent an accurate accounting barring errors, that the survey is taken thoroughly and is evenly distributed across the survey area (i.e. U.S. or GA), that the majority of the actual numbers are reported, etc.

These billboards are a means of The Radiance Foundation to arouse African Americans to become angered and enraged at the amount of abortions taking place in the black community especially in Atlanta, Georgia. It's a cry for ethnic preservation. The motive is that most of the black community is pro-choice - of course, because they have so many abortions. If it were in my power to convince and change the hearts of my pro-choice family members to value the sanctity of human life at every stage, then I would do it in a heartbeat. But as long as the masses suppress the truth in unrighteousness, nothing short of divine regeneration is going to convince them otherwise. We still preach, we still stand, we still give charitable contributions, we volunteer, we give birth, we teach our children, we counsel, we adopt and do all we can to defend the most dangerous place on earth - the mother's womb - on behalf of those who have no voice.

Defend the cause of the weak and fatherless;
maintain the rights of the poor and oppressed.
Rescue the weak and needy;
deliver them from the hand of the wicked.
Psalm 82:3-4

Multitude Monday

holy experience

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God.
Colossians 3:16

Today I give thanks for
311. An early morning run
312. The ability to get back to running after taking a two-week break.
313. No wrist pain while running
314. No pregnancy pain while running
315. No wrist pain while teaching piano
316. The time change that delays the dawn
317. Regular afternoon naps
318. It's been several days since I've last vomited
319. Mary Kay concealer
320. Signs of life from my slowly growing belly

What are you thankful for?

March 14, 2010

Joy Is a Fruit of the Spirit

The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against these things there is no law.
Galatians 5:22-23

This is no new revelation. But it is easy in this list to start concentrating on the other "harder" fruits like patience and self-control, where we immediately feel the conviction of the Holy Spirit. When we're having a particularly difficult day we can say to ourselves, "Today I'm exhibiting faithfulness and love by persevering in these things and self-control when I'm falsely accused and don't retaliate, vindicate or defend myself."

As we put off anxiety, exhibiting peace becomes more evident, too. The more we trust in the sovereignty of God, that He is in complete control of everything, the less we begin to worry about the small stuff and even the big stuff.

Kindness and gentleness may come more easily as a parent who naturally loves and feels compassion for your own children.

But what about joy?

Especially in those trying and difficult moments of the day or even during seasons of life where joy just seems to escape the expression of our faces and homes, are we convicted that we don't have more joy?

I can't put on a mask for very long. It looks fake and rightly so. If I don't feel it in my heart, I won't express it on my face or in my general dealings throughout the day. I want to have a joy-filled home and it must begin with me. I've heard it said that the husband was the head of the home and the wife is the heart of the home. "If Momma ain't happy, ain't nobody happy."

Joy comes from Christ and not our circumstances. Can we still have joy when things are not going the way we thought or wanted? Can we have joy despite the worst of times and we are hard pressed on every side trying to meet all the demands of life and complete all our tasks?

Yes. There is joy inexpressible in Christ! He is the only One who can satisfy thirsty souls. He is the only One that can understand whatever current sufferings we endure. And when we need encouragement we can cry out to Him and seek His grace. None of us have had the immense burden of enduring 33+ years of remaining sinless and holy in our actions and thoughts! None of us have had to endure the pain and torture of the cross carrying the sins of the people of God! He holds in His hands the keys of death and Hades!

Let us joy in the fact that, as believers, we are not on our way to utter torment in fire for all eternity! We are not trapped in the futility of our minds, darkened in our understanding and ignorant of the love and justice of God! We have an immeasurable number of blessings heaped upon us - the foremost being Christ Himself, greater than any material or immaterial blessing He could ever give. The amazing grace that He chose us when we didn't choose Him when He could have left our hearts hardened in our desire for sin and rebellion, like so many others who suppress the Truth in unrighteousness. He is perfectly righteous and exchanges our filthiness and inadequacy for His perfect righteousness and holiness that we could never even begin to achieve no matter how hard we try.

Imagine the beauty of His holiness! What it will be like to stand in His presence, face to face, seeing Him clearly and for that moment of sheer bliss to seem like an eternity of wonder - we will never want to leave and we won't have to! All our fears will be cast away! All our painful memories will be erased. All of the longings of our hearts will be sanctified and filled. We will be glorified and removed from the presence of all sin and no longer influenced by it's power.

Imagine that glorious Day of victory! When Christ crushes the Enemy under our feet! We will look down upon him in triumph at last! No more addictions. No more idols of the heart. No more deception. No more subtleties. We won't have to discern between good and bad, better and best. Our Redeemer lives! Death is swallowed up in victory!

Remember this and let it bring a smile to your face! And there are so many other aspects of Christ that can bring us joy! He is infinite. And He should be enough to make us smile when we don't feel like smiling. If we feel we need something more let us fall down and repent of our idolatry. He is more than enough for our weary, hungry, tired, beat-down souls.

Rejoice in the Lord always. And again I say, rejoice!

March 13, 2010

Saturday Strings

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Christopher Parkening

performing Jesu, Joy of Man's Desiring

by J. S. Bach, transcribed by Rick Foster

March 11, 2010

Free to Move

The stitches were removed this morning! I can move it freely, but it is still weak. The doctor said that if it hurts, don't do it. There are several things I can do without pain but there are other things for which I just need more strength. Flexibility is slightly compromised in this weakened state, but I suppose it will return soon. I go back to the DR in one month for another follow-up. Thanks for praying.

Thanks everyone for the wonderful meals! We've had some really awesome food: Chicken & Broccoli Casserole, Chili, Chicken Noodle Casserole, Tex-Mex Chicken & Rice Casserole, Roast Beef, Baked Ham & Cheese Sandwiches and Hamburger Soup! Yum yum!!!

March 8, 2010

Multitude Monday

holy experience

Willingly I will sacrifice to You:
I will give thanks to Your name,
O LORD, for it is good.
Psalm 54:6

306. Moisturizing lotion
307. Snow-covered hills, trees, mountains, streams - to see it's beauty
308. A decline in nausea
309. The blessing of giving
310. The hope of a full recovery

What are you thankful for today?

March 6, 2010

Saturday Strings

Ladies and Gentlemen,

The Shanghai Quartet

performing Beethoven
the 4th movement of Op. 18, No. 6

March 5, 2010

Update: Hand & Girls

Everything was going very well with my hand - only a little pain when I tried something, of which I would stop. I was finding that I could do more things without pain and discomfort. Yesterday My hand and fingers had become swollen again and even now. I hadn't had any swelling since the day of the surgery until yesterday. It's not painful or uncomfortable, but it's a little difficult locating my knuckles. :-)

My Mother-in-Law returned home Thursday after giving SO much help! My Mom has been coming over while Jeramy's been at work to help change diapers and help clean, which is still too painful to execute. :-D Meals are coming and I'm so thankful to everyone for all of the help! I'll go back to the doctor March 11 to remove the stitches.

There are new pictures of the girls from February in the right sidebar.

March 4, 2010

Our Anniversary at The Biltmore House

For our third year wedding anniversary Jeramy and I enjoyed two days touring the Biltmore House in Asheville, North Carolina. The land is so beautiful, even in the dead of winter, and especially when it's covered in snow. We really had a wonderful time. If you ever have a chance to visit, you will enjoy the craftsmanship, quality, excellence, extravagance and the real humanity of the home and the Vanderbilts who lived there. What's it like to live in such a way that money is no object or barrier? Come see the Estate and you'll find out.

(Taking pictures inside the Home is prohibited.)

March 1, 2010

Multitude Monday

holy experience

After having surgery, I have a lot to be thankful for:

286. Everything went smoothly, by God's grace.
287. By God's grace I was enabled to keep a smile and pleasant attitude.
288. Throughout the course of the morning, all anxiety was relieved and I could smile with peace.
289. All of my surgical team were very kind.
290. I didn't have any extra medication: no narcotics, anti-anxiety meds - only the lidocaine for the bier blocker.
291. I didn't vomit the entire morning!!! (That's huge!)
292. I haven't had much swelling or pain since Friday's surgery.
293. I am so thankful for Mom watching the girls for two nights.
294. I am so very thankful for my Mother-in-Law who is able to come and help-never complaining with always such a willing, "whatever you need" attitude.
295. The prayers of my church family.
296. The meals ministry of my church family.
297. My mother-in-law's vegetable soup.
298. The bunk beds my Mother bought - so that our house guests have a more comfortable place to sleep.
299. Pain lessening with each passing day.
300. The ability to type this list, with little to no pain.
301. Hearing the baby's heartbeat before and after surgery.
302. Being able to shower without getting my dressing wet.
303. Subway sandwich after surgery.
304. Quiet naps.
305. Calls and emails checking in on me.